I may need a match patch, but I will survive.....

soo you ask??? what is going on with me??? nothing really sorta kinda dropping out for a bit, the dating game has gotten old, and I am gonna take my two and two and be back in a bit (yes I know that was Chuck's line from Love Connection but I can use it too... shut up!) I guess I haven't been getting what I want or need out of dating, so maybe I need a break... sure it is glamorous (Macaroni Grill???) and exciting (driving far distances for a beer) and sexy (no panties were dropped in my ventures) but at that same time, I wasn't in it for the excitement or the potential for really hot sex... (ok, I lie, I totally wanted some of that, but all my male counter parts were not potentially hot sex partners) I really wanted to meet someone grand, who blew me away with the prospect of a really great relationship... but alas the ones who liked me, I didn't like back and the ones I liked didn't like me like that... soooooo.... ahem...... I also realized it was not the best scenario for my kids.... they hate grandma watching them, she hates babysitting and is well, mean to them... the one guy I did introduce to them, they loved.... and he was a bit too comfortable with them and it sent a thousand flares into the sky... and caused me great concern...

sooooo I am gonna refocus on other things.. like what you ask??? ummm masturbation, practicing my soft porn facial shots in the mirror, trying new types of cooking, bought myself a pro kitchen aid mixer: gonna annoy the shit out of everyone this Christmas with cookies and such, weekend outings and building traditions with the monkeys... maybe a hobby or two, going back to school full time next fall gonna teach I think, getting the hell outta hear, and stuff like that.... not throwing in the towel, not giving up, just taking a break... it isn't working.... ohh well..... just need a lil break for a month or two or 6....