me, sore, tired.....

me, confused on what to do.... sorta kinda boyfriend is the best cuddle bug in the kingdom, but he lacks in all sorts of departments... what happens to the great beginning emails and phone calls that happen in the beginning... all the talk that never seems to end, where you are soooo anxious and excited to learn something new about the other person, to know all the stupid shit they did in their day???? what they ate, what they are wearing... when will you see each other again.... mmmm.... it has only been four months, we barely speak, I get a nice text here and there... but yeah the magic is fizzling away... so I went out with someone new... and he was cute... and nice, and that nonstop garble or nonsense back and forth was there... and it felt good.... I don't know if I am done with undercover boyfriend, but I hope he figures his shit out before he loses me... cuz I am a rockin girl... I deserve something grand... and well if it isn't there, then lets cut our losses now, and break clean... I read an article about women should date 4 guys at once, then whittle them down as time goes on, this prevents the classic girl mistake of investing tooo much tooo soon... if juggling multiples well, there is no time for over investment... so maybe that will be my new goal... mmmm..... I accidental called an old boy toy and we started up a nice chat, maybe he can be number three... I have a massive crush on my very married trainer... ummmm he can be my make believe number four... (make believe is less complicated....)

me, proud as I taught my second class this morning, bright and so friggin early at 5:45 am.... hard to wake, much less get a class of peoples going loud and proud... but so far, sooo good... gotta take it easy the rest of the day, have to teach again tonight at 5:45 pm... and tomorrow at 5 am and then again at 9:30 am... mmm... I have to wonder out loud, what the hell did I get myself into?????

ohhhh this is what the monkeys do to the play area when I am trying to learn my routines... notice the smug-ness??? Gabi, my evil-est lil monkey, gotta love her....